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Priyanka looks back and writes an open letter to her younger self, accepting and acknowledging many things. A Different Truths exclusive.
Hi, Younger Me,
How have you been, sorry I could not connect with you earlier, you know how life keeps one busy in struggling to win their part of happiness and some bread butter to survive. But as I am aging and crossing each year of my life with all the experiences, happiness and ironies imbibed in it, I started missing you. I have realised how much I missed talking to you and how much I missed acknowledging your presence in my growing years. There was a part of me which reminded me of you in every moment of my life, a part which is still left behind somewhere, in search of the beauty of life.
I know you have a lot to say, you have suppressed a lot of emotions within you and today I have decided to acknowledge and accept everything to make it even with you, give you a second chance and move on together hand in hand.
When you had no one to tell you what you should do when you were bullied for your skin colour, where should you go when you had a brutal heartache.
Perhaps because of certain circumstances, you were in, or a few decisions you took way back or maybe just memoirs of some incidents which did not get proper closure, you still suffer in silence. When you had no one to tell you what you should do when you were bullied for your skin colour, where should you go when you had a brutal heartache. You were timid and a very simple girl, who only knew to be nice with people around, but people always used your goodness and left you without any reason and I am responsible for all this because I let that happened to you. I allowed anyone to enter that space and evade your happy zone.
Today, when I look back I realise, I should have made you a little stronger, I should have helped you to accept you the way you are, long back, I should have helped you to make even with yourself and live the life of your choice.
I should have helped you to build your dreams, as I see you lost your precious time while focusing on pleasing people and mending things with them and lost your own identity.
But today you will be happy to hear that, although it took a little longer, now I am living the life of my dreams
But today you will be happy to hear that, although it took a little longer, now I am living the life of my dreams, I have made even with myself, have accepted myself and I love my skin colour too. I have taken charge of my life and I am building myself piece by piece, all alone. The content is so immense that I feel so complete with me and thrive to work hard till the time when I longer have to introduce myself to anyone.
Wherever I go, whatever I do, I will keep coming back to you…
In the end, I would like to thank you for being a part of me, for holding on, you were a part of me now and you will be a part of me forever. Wherever I go, whatever I do, I will keep coming back to you, not to mourn or express grudges but to express gratitude.
We should connect often and mend things between us, waiting for your reply.
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